"I belong deeply to myself"

marie antoinette (2006)

losingmyself-gainingmyself:

I SOMEHOW PUT ABOUT 20 REFERENCES IN THE REFERENCE NUMBER AFTER THE ONES THEYRE SUPPOSED TO BE UNDER AND NOW I WANT TO KILL SOMEONE

it’s ok i fixed it it wasn’t even that bad just slightly confusing
better that i caught it now rather than later
please return to your normal lives :)

I SOMEHOW PUT ABOUT 20 REFERENCES IN THE REFERENCE NUMBER AFTER THE ONES THEYRE SUPPOSED TO BE UNDER AND NOW I WANT TO KILL SOMEONE

There is actually nothing like the smell of the cherry blossoms lining my local streets when spring hits. I go for walks and sniff every one I pass. The neighbours must think I’m a total weirdo!

so, i can’t remember if i said or not, but i’m giving up sugar. in the process i’m also becoming more dedicated to, and focused on, being very healthy and giving my body shit tonnes of nutrients.

with a thesis due date looming and a massive recital after that, i asked myself if this was the right time to have a massive diet change and reignite my occasional passion for food and nutrition. but the thesis and recital are actually reason so really focus on being healthy. if my brain and body can function better, everything is going to follow.

i even went to an organic market on the weekend and bought a massive bunch of kale and some heirloom tomatoes (among some other goodies like a soy wax candle, a vegan beetroot and dukkah dip and almond milk yoghurt). i’m determined to go back next week with a solid meal plan for the week and buy even more vegetables and fruits! I particularly liked this little stall that was all organic. It was very small and the food was all neat and tidy and washed, the vegetables were all slightly funny shaped and they sold good amounts of food for fairly low prices. It felt more genuine and personal to me and I really liked it.

Giving up sugar actually hasn’t been that bad. I made the decision to really do it, and I’ve gradually and consciously reduced my sugar intake from junk and other processed foods each week. Making sure i get enough seeds and nuts and other wholefoods has really helped. I don’t get as hungry anymore, when I’m full I stay full for a long time and don’t crave junk foods anymore.

Fat from the nuts and seeds is amazing!

I’m hoping I will lose a bit of weight but really I’m just hoping I will feel better and have more energy and be able to get through each day better. I’d like my skin to feel clear and clean and fresh.

Anyway hope you are all doing well and hope to talk soon :)
xxx

chubby-punx:

Joan Rivers was a victim blaming, transphobic, racistfat shaming, pro-Israel wretch of a woman and I am not sad she’s dead

alienpunkers:

Porn is one of the biggest and most harmful industries in the world, closely affiliated with human trafficking and drugs and alcohol abuse, causing rape between children, violence, beastiality and pedophilism and its fetishizing race, underage girls, trans people and lesbianism. Thought you should know. 

HOW DO YOU GET YOUR EYELINER SO PERFECT OMG

HOW DO YOU GET YOUR EYELINER SO PERFECT OMG

mecha-bun:

id rather be vain than learn to hate myself again

rogue i’m-meant-to-be-doing-my-thesis post

bad things that happened today:
- fell over twice and hurt myself quite a bit both times
- i dropped my blueberries all over the floor. just depressing
- a colleague made banana bread for me which was lovely but i ate way too much of it
- i didn’t do any practicing
- i’m completely over exhausted from staying up so late to get thesis stuff done and then getting up really early for work
- came home to my room smelling like something died in it. i have no idea what it could be, i looked every where, cleared out any rubbish. so now i’m going to stink and my clothes are going to stink.
- it’s absolutely impossible to organise my chamber group, no one will budge, no one is available at the same time
- i got a letter about not doing my taxes on time and now i’m freaking out
- it’s cold

good things that happened today:
- i made a good start on my lit review for my thesis, my supervisor said i basically have to change the whole thing but i still think i made a pretty good start
- i found out i don’t have to do a stupid subject i thought i would have to do
- my professor is open to the idea of me playing this piece i wanted to play in my final recital, originally he said no for various reasons but i’ve persuaded him to rethink it

My thesis is due in 10 weeks and my computer is being weird and only accessing like 10 posts from my tumblr dashboard at a time so I’m going to make the most of this computer malfunction and not really be on tumblr much for the next couple of months. I need to knuckle down and really focus to get all this writing done and tumblr is a massive distraction and time-waster for me.

I’ll still send and receive messages, I’ll just be a little bit slow.

Hope everyone is doing well and see you in a couple of months!! :) xxx

It’s July, the middle of winter here in Australia. But the air has changed already. The summer air is making its way in. Today was something like 23 degrees (Celsius) I think, sunny, warm, a light breeze, a stunningly beautiful day.

It just made me feel so happy. So inspired. The end (of uni) is coming, I just have this last little stretch to go. So I’m writing a 10,000 word thesis? I just have to focus on it and concentrate. I need to start making goals and planning ahead. I can do it.

I’m so excited to get out of uni and spend a summer going for walks on beaches and in forests and creating things and just being free and myself.

mediumaevum:

Are these your ancestors?

Faces of medieval Scots digitally reconstructed after their skulls were unearthed in a cemetery (read on)

jokesmymomwouldlike:

are you ever just like “lol white people” but then you’re like “wait i am a white people”